To The Person Living in Limbo
To the person living in limbo, I want you to know I am right there with you. Your anxiety is not in your head, your fear of not amounting to anything is not ridiculous, and those mental breakdowns of feeling like you’re stuck in this loop hole that’s never ending, is not dramatic. I want you to know I get it, and I’m right there with you sitting in the middle of the bed (fetal position) wondering, “where do I go from here.”
When I turned 21 I remember sitting in my bedroom saying to myself, "Okay Nicole. Everyone says your 20's go by fast so you have to make sure you embrace this time and accomplish your goals". The fear of waking up one day and feeling like my time has passed before my eyes feared me and I wanted to make sure every decision I make would be the right one. In result, it literally made me fearful of any and every decision I made. Not that I haven't done anything since then, but any bold move that would redirect my life has been a standstill.
I have entered an age bracket where everyone around me is taking a step into their lives of a different path - having babies, getting engaged, buying homes, etc. Although social media memes have made light of the pressure of "adulting", with Kim Kardashian crying GIF's & Kermit the frog sipping tea to avoid confrontation, it has all come down to this reality. The reality that as time passes us by, we're all still making a joke of it.
Instead of laughing together, we’re all just laughing at ourselves that turn into violent mental breakdowns of being a ratchet mess. Living in limbo is living aimlessly with no intention or direction. Or just keeping busy to make ourselves feel useful in our lives to only realize we’re just doing the same thing over and over again. So how do we stop? How do we progress and get out of the vicious cycle?
I spoke to a friend of mine and he told me to write 20 things I want to accomplish before I die, almost like a bucket list. Then once I wrote the list, to prioritize my top five and start there. Organizing your goals and creating a plan, no matter how small, allows a step forward. It gives you something more purposeful to look forward to than a free coffee award. I’ve now realized that living in limbo truly means that I’m living in my comfort zone and the only reason why I feel this uncomfortable is because the universe is literally telling me to snap out of it. Sometimes these weird holds we feel is our fear holding us back. It’s time to unfold ourselves from that fetal position, plant our feet on the ground, and work on something towards bigger than our routines of work and paying bills. We need to start looking forward to how we can accomplish our goals instead of “the new schedule” and what to post as our #tbt. Its time to limbo out of limbo land and unto the change we need.
